About a week ago me and the Mr. celebrated our seven year wedding anniversary.
Look how young we looked. Well we were young but still it is crazy what seven years will do to you. When we got married I had never really lived anywhere other than Ohio where I was born and Florida where I moved when I was twelve. So when I married B I entered into a whole new world. The world of the Marine Corps.
It has been such a wonderful experience! I have LOVED every moment of it.
Seven years ago when we got married we had not thought to much about having kids. We knew we both wanted to have them so we did nothing to stop it from happening .We figured if it happens it happens and we would be excited.
Well after a year went by no baby. So we decided to get checked out to make sure nothing was wrong. The doctor said everything looked good just to keep trying.
About two months later B deployed to Iraq for 7 months.
When he returned we moved to Yuma, AZ.Still trying to conceive we went and saw a doctor whom called himself a fertility specialist but was only a regular OB.
Once again he "checked" both of us and said everything looked fine and put me on a new drug they were using to stimulate ovulation, called Femara . Femara is actually used to help people with brest cancer but was being tested in the fertility world. I was the 2 person he had ever tried it on. Well every month I had to go in to get a pregnancy test and nothing ever happened.
he kept telling us keep taking it and you will get pregnant , so of course we are excited and after 6 months nothing happened . So he added injections. This went on for 3 years. trying this and that not being monitored properly. Finally we went to see and IVF doctor in Tucson, and he was ready to just jump right on it. I wanted answers I was not going to do IVF the last resort until I know what was wrong and that I knew I for sure could not conceive alone. So me and B decided to take some time off of the TTC. We needed a break. Then B got randomly selected for recruiting duty in Louisianan.
When we got here we decided to see an actual specialist. As we were sitting in his office he was looking through all my files from the last 5 years and was not saying anything just had a frustrated look on his face. He said I dont like to talk about other doctors but you have never been monitored properly. He said you have all the symptoms of PCOS but have never been tested. He then did an exam and BAM there ya go I have severe PCOS. So he put me on Metformin to help straighten my insulin. He gave us the option to try Clomid but told us that if we just wanted to skip to an IUI that it was fine with him since we have already been through and tried so much. We went ahead and tried the Clomid. I just finished my fourth month on it. The first 3 months my body responded to it but not as well as we wanted it to.Month four it did not work at all. this has been an emotional roller coaster for both of us.
We have decided to just stop the Clomid and just try the IUI.
Before we go into that next chapter of our lives I need to loose weight and get healthy. With PCOS your chances of becoming diabetic are a lot higher. Also our chances of twins are higher with IUI so I don't want to go into it heavy. Plus I need to feel good abut myself again
We just started eating Paleo/Primal . It is hard to adjust to when your used to eating crappy but was a good decision. Sometimes I wonder why us, why can't we have a baby? We are so in love and would love our baby unconditionally!
But sometimes I just have to stop and remember that everything happens for a reason!
I may not know what God has in store for us , but I know it will be great! I am so blessed to have B! I could not ask for a more patient loving man to love me!
